Gratitude, Cookies and #BewbLuv

I do not have the words adequate enough to express my thanks and my gratitude for the amazing support and friendships y’all have shown me since my little announcement.B Trust me, I have checked both my thesauruses and neither wielded the words sufficient enough! So, please accept my simple Thank You!!
and, I received…..

Bacon cookies!! Err, crumbles!! Thanks, Ted Curtin
Giant Chocolate Chip cookie!!! FTW, Thanks Tim

On the heels of my announcement, I’ve decided that in following in the footsteps of chronicling all my major events on Twitter, we need a hashtag (Yes, I am a TwitterAddict), several twitter conversations, couple of texts and consulting with the Elusive Teen….B #BewbLuv has arrived!! ‘Tis true, I do lurve my bewbs and it’s time to get them fixed and all better before Summer and bikini season!!
I realize Cancer is scary! I also, know it is awkward and uncomfortable, that people don’t know what to say or what to do! Well, it’s doubly so for me, it’s horrible to share all of this with you. Not because y’all aren’t wonderful, coz you really are but because, I don’t like this focus on me, I am uncomfortable.B So, why am I doing this, why am I being so open with something that makes me cross-eyed and terrifying?B I’d like to say that I am all noble and selfless, but really, I’m not… I’m going to need y’all and I refuse to cower and sob in the corner, even if I do have my fav Princess blankie.B I’m scared and worried.B That being said, I’m also, sharing all of this coz I am not the only person in this place.B I am not the only woman who has been dealt this card.B I will share all the down and dirty in the hopes that perhaps I can comfort someone or even help.B Maybe just maybe, I can ease the mind of someone else, that perhaps my words will lend strength to someone.
Soooo, y’all will be getting all the down and dirty, mostly…. there will be no pics!! And, I have elicited promises from a few people to make sure that I am electronic free while drugged up!! I kno, that takes out all the fun, rite?? Don’t worry, I assure you there will be shenanigans and antics galore!! For one thing, I am hoping to gain a few more foursquare mayorships out of this ( I will be changing the names of all my doctors), I am anticipating some good drugs and maybe even a few days where my Mommy cooks my favourite meals for me ( There will be foodie pics)!!
Now, the UPDATE…. I got nothing. No, really… turns out you can’t just call a boobie doctor and say “Hey, I haz a sick bewb, can u fit me in next Tuesday before lunch and golf” I am SHOCKED!!! The problem is I don’t have health insurance.B And, while I know Doctors won’t work for free, mostly, I didn’t realize there are other factors.B Other factors, like having a referral, finding out if a doctor is well versed in the latest technology and medical stuff and knowing which questions to ask.B I do, have a referral, and the doctor I went to for the diagnosis is utterly fantastic!! There is a program (I’m to young for most of the programs that assist woman with breast cancer, we aren’t even going to start in on the fact that it’s utterly ridiculous that 40 is the magic number to get breast cancer since obviously you don’t have to be 40 to get it!!) that will help me and yesterday after a minor tech challenge, I was enrolled and given a surgeon.B Great rite? Yes and no…. see I can look up the surgeon and learn about her education and how long she has been in practice, I can also, see that she is not specifically a breast surgeon, that her main practice is general surgery.B That makes me nervous.B I am going to go speak with her, at the sage advice of my friend.B But, I’m afraid, concerned that just because I don’t have health insurance perhaps that maybe I’ll not get the best care.B There is also, the fear that maybe I am not asking the right questions, since I am certain there are more questions I should be asking other than “What kind of drugs do I get and When can I wear my bikini” Yes, people, I am vain enough to be concerned about how I am going to look.B I realize this is a secondary issue but it’s still niggling at me*!!!
Also, I have a wonderful friend, who has stepped up and is checking on getting me help from a top doctor in NY.B I have options, I know this.B I am waiting, since that seems to be all I can do and I am staying off Google, it’s possible, I may have wine, too.B I am ok, well, mostly… special thanks to the time spent on the phone yesterday with two different friends that held my hand while I experienced my minor meltdown.B I fully expect to be on the mend no later then the beginning of May, as I have major plans for both May and June!! I will be in Chicago at SOBCon in May and in June after the Elusive Teen graduates from high school, we ( the kids & I) will be moving to New York!! I’m looking for suggestions as to where to live and also, a 3 bedroom place… so if anyone knows of a good place, please holler!!
* Thanks for all the offers from my friends who have offered to visually check my bewbs after surgery, I realize the huge sacrifice you are making and appreciate that you are ready to assure me, my girls are still gorgeous!!

18 thoughts on “Gratitude, Cookies and #BewbLuv

  1. Hugs and kudos to you, Brandie. It won’t be easy but you’re surrounded by some awe-and-then-some peeps. I’ll raise my hand to be included in “going to need y’all” — Skype, phone, singing telegram, etc.

    1. I’m curious about that singing telegram! Yes, skype and phone will be used, thank you!!

  2. Wow.. major moving changes. NY is an awesome place and being able to be close to a bewb doctor that can help get you through all of this. Most friends that I know that have or do live in NY suggest Long Island, where there are homes, yards and fresh air. And just a train ride into the city.

    1. Thanks, Marty! We are hoping to escape suburbia and live in the Big Bad City! Taking both kids and will be a great experience!!

  3. O.K. – New York is it…as a life long New Yorker I can certainly point you in the right direction on many levels…most importantly NYC 0r Upstate?
    Coming from the woods of the Sierras you’re in for quite a cultural experience – and maybe the best one of your life to coincide with everything else you’re handling. (Btw – ASK Q’s of everyone – insurance or no…those that squeak get the best oil…)
    I am a city kid, but I also lived in Upstate for many years and on the Island and have relatives in Westchester, NYC and the Hudson Valley currently…(I moved to the enemy territory of Boston 6 years ago and have been dodging avid Red Sox fans ever since…)
    Skype me when you can and I am sure that I can paint some pictures for you 🙂 (Btw – I miss the City everyday…no place like it on earth!)

    1. Lol!! I’m a City Girl! Actually, grew up in the Bay Area!! Soooo, ready to get back to the City! Would love any insights you may have!! And, there will always be a spot on my couch for you when you want to come visit!!

  4. O.K. here’s a start…
    Check out Inwood, Dumbo, Alphabet City, maybe north Upper East Side in Manhattan, Park Slope or Williamsburg in Brooklyn are a place to start looking… they’re possibilities for reasonable (all relative for NYC) costs…(never been a fan of Queens, Bronx or Staten Island…)
    Hoboken is also a possibility across the Hudson in NJ (or Jersey City maybe…)…I know Jersey? …but they are actually very hip.
    If you have a stash of cash or a rich uncle you can lean on…my favorite is the Upper West Side…great schools PS 87 is a very good school on 78th St…I last lived on the corner of 78th and Amsterdam – but my modest 3 br condo was VERY Expensive – when we sold it the market was so sizzling that a month later I wouldn’t have been able to buy a 2 Br!! Comparable rents for our 3 br space (and it wasn’t too posh) were running $3,500-$4,000/month (that was 2002)!!! Pretty crazy to say the least…but as a Bay Area gal this probably won’t shock you (in NYC think things like Murphy beds and using every possible square inch of a 1 or 2 BR. I have a great friend who lives in Inwood (very upper Manhattan) that loves it and he and his husband bought – but there are possibilities up there that could be had rent wise – I like the neighborhood and the subway brings everything together…I can hook you up with Dave and he would definitely help…
    As far as the couch goes – just a chair or hallway is all that’s needed – and I shower regularly – promise… 🙂

  5. Brandie, I love your hashtag!! I don’t think it’s vain at all to be concerned about how you’re going to look afterwards. You’re human, and a woman, they’re a part of you. I’d feel the same way. And BTW, I’ll be passing on visually checking your bewbs! =)

    1. What?? You don’t want to check out the “Girls”??? I’m shocked!! Nah, I totally understand… I’m not certain I’ll be letting anyone check ’em out for awhile!! And, Thank you!! We need to have some fun with this!!!

  6. Brandie, as sad as I am for you having to go through this, your transparency and authenticity are inspiring to me! Prayers will continue to come your way friend!

    1. Thank you, Brent! Much appreciated!! It’s been an interesting journey so far!!

  7. Just words of caring from Ohio, via Mike Haley’s post. Everything you’ve said, spot on. Will be thinking of you, prayers and love your attitude!

    1. Thank you, it’s so nice to meet you and for your kind thoughts!!

  8. Brandie, I am a friend of Mike Haley’s. He told me about your story! I have a friend of my that we through a similar situation. I am inspired by your story and wish you all of the luck in the world! Stay strong and fight the good fight! It is women like you and my good friend (Arah) that make this world a better place! Prayers from me and my family.

    1. Thank you so much, Travis!! I truly appreciate all your thoughts!!

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